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I never understand these feelings, just think of him as a friend, brother or someone who specaial. I think i need and i always try to be the person who he could count on when he was in need someone, why he can’t become someone who i was petrified when i need someone beside me, i don’t know if he just thinks I'm playing or someone who should not exist in his life i think i’am just a make a fool of someone. although I always positive thinking but still i negative thinking about him, i need a clarification from you.

Sorry I'm not the person that you can take for granted!